I have a lot of work to do, but I need to write about this first. What I've been experiencing some serious sleep disturbances, and they are making it difficult to do what I need to do during the day.

( 1. Difficulty getting to sleep. )

"Why is it that when I get depressed, I feel drawn to Christianity, but when I'm feeling better, I'm drawn back to ... everything else? I'm going to explore that question more fully in a later entry..."

Today's that day. I'm going to attempt to answer this question in several ways: The Cynic, The Believer, and The Rational Thinker.

The Cynic.I'm ( Read more... )

This is my least-favorite time of year in Ohio. Spring keeps teasing, but winter holds on. The sun shows itself just long enough to make people realize how much they've missed it before it's swallowed again by dull grey clouds ( Read more... )

It's Thursday evening. I'm done with classes for the week. I'm totally exhausted, not from classes but from my own emotional roller-coaster ( Read more... )

Getting awakened suddenly during the deep sleep stage = instant panic attack. Thanks, drunks outside my window! Oh, the joys of university life ...

I have a problem with eating out. Get your mind out of the gutter; I'm talking about restaurants, and how they seem to be triggers for panic attacks ( Read more... )

I had a meltdown on Monday, and I've been depressed and anxious all week. After five glorious days in Austin learning things, meeting people and seeing sights, coming back to my mother's house was a shock. PTSD kicked in, and kicked my ass. It was like coming back from Portland and, years earlier, the United Kingdom, all over again. I'm recovering ( Read more... )

So, now that I am an aspiring journalist, I'm getting a little paranoid that some things I've done in the past will come back and bite me in the ass. What if someone gets hold of one of my raunchy chat transcripts? What if someone finds those nasty photos from not-so-long-ago? What if people find out I've been in a mental institution? What if ( Read more... )